Once again I have to start this off with a quote I heard from a random location. I don't even know where or when I hear these things, I just seem to come across weird things like this. Dig it.

A man is only as faithful as his options.

Wow. This was a smart person. I consider myself a fairly faithful person. I may have the moment of indescretion when Mariah Carey or Tia Carrera come to town just to see me. But what man wouldn't? Dig it. You've seen the pic. I'm not the most handsomest (is that a word?) man on the planet. But I'm far from the ugliest. I've been in a long term relationship for about 5 years now. Most of them have been cheat proof. On my part that is. (but we're not talking about that yet) There have been women I wanted to get with, but it never happened. Let's look at why.

I love white girls! Recently I've learned to be attracted white women too. Get it? Now being that I'm 30 something years old, the average 18-21 year old white girl isn't feeling me. Also factor in that I tell the few women that do want to get with me that I have no intention of leaving my current girlfriend, and you see my dilemma.

Somehow I managed to catch a girl that understood what was going on and was willing to agree to my terms. (that sounds so much worse than it really is) She's cute too! Cute meaning: she can do a lot better than me. Even so, we're together. Sort of. In the beginning, we used to see each other all the time. Then things changed. We see each other less and less now. When we do get together we generally have a good time, but there's always that little thing nagging at us... Are we going to hook up? We both want to. But it doesn't usually go down like that. Why? She won't ask for it. NO other reason. Why does she have to? Because men like to feel wanted to! We like our ego to be catered to just as much as women do.

Now given the equation: L+T=O (location plus time equals opportunity) If you've got all three, everything else is a walk in the park. This is where monogamy gets weak. Give a man those three variables, and add to that a discreet creepin' partner, monogamy doesn't stand a chance.

It would seem like I've got it made. But I don't. Why? Because my partner is ashamed to ask for what she wants. See? Even when it's good, it's not always all good. So I'm here to say this. Get it now while you still can. If we can't solve this little problem, we should stop. We've had a good run. No one's caught on, and we're still friends. I would like to continue, but it's up to you. Holla back.

It's weird. I'm not really even like that, but after 5 years... you know. I just want to make sure that I'm with the right one. I want to try some new stuff. She's cheated on me througout the relationsip. That doesn't make what I'm doing right. But I'm not looking for any justification. I want what I want when I want it.Oh well. I'm out. I can't wait to see the comments on this one.

Does anyone remember that game? I used to hate it. It was obviously designed by some sexually repressed nerd who couldn't find any other way to got a woman's clothes off. And you know most women always pick truth. So, the afforementioned nerd would just ask some sexually charged question in the hopes that he could beat off to the answer later. Or something like that.

That actually has nothing to do with what I want to write about. Last night I had dinner with some friends. Somehow we all had a good time. That wouldn't seem so amazing to most people, but I was out with the drama family. Trust me, these people crave drama. It's like they live off of that shit. Forgive me if I don't give any examples, but these are the type of people that call the police on each other, so to lessen the chances of me being sued for slander, I'll forego particulars.

Anyhoo, before dinner we were just sitting together discussing some things. This would also be normal, except we were being really honest and open with each other. Why can't more people do this? I'll tell you why. The truth sucks. It's the only thing you can hear, be glad you heard it, and still be upset someone told it to you.

Off topic: I think I'm getting dumber. I can't maintain any topics lately. It's like I feel my intelligence leaving me. Did you ever watch SpongeBob SquarePants? That's how I feel.

I've got to start writing this earlier. I'm out. I'll keep posting, but there probably won't be anything of substance until January. I'm getting my daughter next week. More on that later. Goodbye and GOD Bless.

I came across a good quote the other day. "He who knows anything, knows he knows nothing at all." Very profound. I like it. It works on so many different levels of my life. At times I think I'm one of the smartest people in the world. Why? Because I'm not ashamed or afraid to ask for help. I can admit when I don't know something. Manly? No. But you'd be amazed by how many women admire that particular quality in me. It's weird. It's not something I can actually use to my advantage, but at the same time it makes me attractive. Weird.

I made today's title for a good reason. I very rarely know what i'm going to say. Sometimes I'm blessed with a topic I can rant and rave about for several paragraphs. But it seeem like ( stalling again.)

I'm not actually stalling. I'm falling asleeep. I work third shift. Asleep at the computer. Once again,I'll continue this later.

Hey look, it's Hetzie ! Anyways... I told you I would tell you all about the new job, so here goes. This job is the shit! I love it. I work when I want. I make good money. I love what I do. What more do you need in life? You don't know? Well I can't tell you what you need, but I can give you a glimpse of what I feel is necessary!

In my day to day life, I don't feel the need to know everything. There's actually very little I care to know about. All I want to do is work. I have no problem handing over the paycheck when the time comes. I do it gladly. Why? Because I don't want to know anything about the bills except that they're getting paid. When I hit the power button on my 58 inch Sony, I expect the damned thing to go on. If it doesn't, we've got problems! That's how I'm livin'.

I just lost my TOT. Shit. I hate it when that happens. I'll be back when the house goes to sleep.

Like the title says! I hate December! There's too many birthdays, holidays, and all that shit. I'm usually so pissed off by the time my own birthday actually comes that I just don't want to deal with anyone or anything. But dig it. I only have a few things to say this time around, so I'll just get to it.

Say what you mean. Mean what you say. There's nothing wrong with eroticism. If you have feelings for someone (it doesn't have to be love) let them know, because you never know. If you want to fuck someone's brains out, and you have the opportunity, do that shit. (you know who I'm talking to) The word dick won't kill you. If you want it, just say it. (same person) Sex is a totally appropriate gift! (again, same person)

That's all. My new job is kicking my ass. The hours suck, but the money is soo good! I"ll tell you all about it later. Peace.